clueless.

Today I learned of one more boy trying to get me back. Why do boys seem to open up their whole heart to me as soon as i'm no longer available to them? Honestly, this has been happening to me ever since I was in grade 9 when I got my first boyfriend, Brad. You think they would know what they want when it's right in front of them, when they had the chance. But, nope they never do until they realize I am not around anymore. I guess the saying " absence makes the heart grow stronger" applies here. I do understand that feeling for sure, because it has happened to me. But, at the same time I know now that if I want something I will never let it go. Maybe it is something you have to learn from though and he probably never has. I also don't understand if someone is scared of something they run from it because they always end up knowing they made a huge mistake and kick themselves in the ass for it everyday. Stupid, stupid, stupid.