that's what you're trying to do.

A lot has happened since last blog. Christmas passed and it was quite good. I had a lot of fun with everyone at all the dinners I went to. I've been to the Casino a lot and it's addicting. I'm glad everyone liked the gifts I bought them because I actually love buying things for people. I have a new dog now. His name is Jackson and he is a Puggle. I got him for my mom for Christmas but I obviously take care of him too. Everything else has been great and I'm looking forward to a new year. I have no idea what my plans for new years are yet but I'm sure in the end it will be tons of fun. I think this year I will spend new years with Jon since everyone else is so confusing with plans and no one seems to agree on anything. We will see when it gets a little closer to then though. I know I had so much more to say but I've gone blank now. I worked 9 hours today and now i'm waiting for the bf to come home from a show in Buffalo so he can pick me up. It's almost 1:30am already though so I hope he msgs soon. That's all for now.

tell me what's been going on.

Going out tonight with the besties. I hardly ever see anyone because they're too busy. I didn't do anything today but I really should have done laundry. I think i'll try to do it tomorrow before work seeing as work fucked up my schedule and i'm pretty mad about it. It also sucks that I have to miss Robyn's birthday because of work, I really wanted to go. Jon's birthday is on Wednesday so that should be super fun seeing as it's Nick's birthday too. I have no idea what were going to do but i'm sure we will figure out something. I wrapped a few of Jon's things today, but I just have to go to the post office to get one last thing that I ordered. I'm buying my mom a dog this year so i'm pretty excited to have a cute new dog around. She wants to name him Jackson which is pretty cute but I have a feeling she will change her mind once she sees him. Well for now I'm going to continue to be addicted to Tumblr and blog later.

end.

I just want pure happiness. I want a place in this world.

over to the right.

I have all my shopping done. Feels good minus the money! It's not like I spent it all but it still sucks. Yesterday was my 1 year with my love. It was fun/good and I enjoyed spending the time with him of course. We didn't do anything special but that's okay, he's the only person I would have wanted to be with. It is defiantly weird starting over, I mean it's been a year so it's not quite starting over but I would almost be at 5 years now so that seems crazy to me.

pursue what catches your heart.

I am now in bed, alone, with my new laptop and shitty blackberry just tumbling and blogging now. I'm also playing some stupid Facebook status game, which I know i'll end up regretting. Tomorrow I work a stupid 3 hour shift I should have never even accepted, but my fault now. I finally get to see Jon in what has seemed to be forever but we have lots to catch up on. This weekend is our one year. It seems like a lot longer but i'm secretly stoked to see what he has planned for me, if anything. I really like being able to post whenever now that I finally got another computer. I feel like I forget a lot of stuff when I don't post days at a time, like I feel they should have been noted. Ahh, well. Keep following me on Tumblr, but don't worry, i'll always be here too.

happy camper.

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most obvious weakness.

I just got home. Spent the weekend with all my friends and boyfriend. Saturday night was my birthday party with my girlfriends, which was a lot of fun. There was this big fight sort of ordeal with this other group of girls, pretty funny I must say. I had a good time today with just Jon. I like just taking it easy with him and doing fun stuff just us two. Now that Cecil is gone it's a lot more difficult to make plans for certain things but so far we've gotten around it. I don't exactly feel like he's gone but I might tomorrow when I have to walk to work.

I feel like being 20 comes with a lot more responsibilities. I feel too old to live at 'home', to not be in school, and to not have a good job with a nice car. No one I know has that at 20 so I don't feel that bad about it. I want to go to school and have a good life for myself. I want a lot of things. Right now I can't be picky, but I also can't be so down about it. I am happy with what I have, for now.