tattoos!

L♥VE!!

pointless boredom.

This is going to be majorly personal, you ready?
Sure

Are you afraid of losing a boy/girl ?
For sure

Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
Some days, really depends

Who's your favorite band right now?
I'm not really sure, I change what I want to listen to every day

Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone?
Almost everyday. : )

Do you drink engery drinks?
Hate them

Can you sleep in total darkness?
Only that way, any lights bother me.

Any tattoos?
10!

Do you trust easily?
Not anymore. I trust one person with everything.

Are you one of those people who just doesn't care?
Yes forsure.

Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yep

Would you rather not eat or not sleep?
Not sleep, waste of time.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
Nope : )

What do you normally drink in the morning?
Anything.

Is there anybody that you trust 100%?
Yeah one person.

How is your relationship with your mother?
mehh

How hard is your life right now?
Money sucks, but when doesn't it?

Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
Not always.

Do you still draw with sidewalk chalk?
I haven't recently

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Noo

Well, have you had sex in the last 48 hours?
Mhmm

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
Yepp

Romantic night or wild night?
Wild.

Where is your heart?
With my boy

Do you believe that all girls are the same?
I guess, but I don't know every girl.

Have you ever received an injury from a hook up?
Haha, no

Are you insecure?
Slightly.

You're single, why?
I am notttt

Did you drink any alcohol this week? Did you get drunk?
No and No

Do you like to cuddle?
With my beeeb

Are you doing anything tonight?
Working.

Has anyone ever hurt you?
Yep.

What is the last reason you cried?
Fighting..

Is it okay to like someone else when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
No, dump your bf/gf

Do you think the last person you kissed likes you?
He loves me.

Do you love or hate straightning your hair?
I don't care

Do you own any band t-shirts?
Yep.

What are you looking forward to?
Sunday!

Have any pets?
A fishy named Fredrick

Have you ever been cheated on?
I wouldn't know if I did.

Have you ever fallen asleep in an opposite sex's bed?
Course!

Would you ever try being a vegetarian?
Fuck no.

Do you believe that there's always room in your heart for your first love?
Yes and no. I'll always know that he was my first love but I'll never think of him that way again.

Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all?
That is a dumb question..

Are you a one night stand or serious relationship type person?
Serious, I like long relationships.

Would you rather be in a relationship or play the field?
I just told you.

Do you like your bed?
I don't have one, but in this case I'll use Jonnys : ) I love it.

home sweet home.

It's nice to be back to reality even though vacation was better then I could ask for. It was exactly what all of us needed and the place fit us exactly. I have a lot to do this week, well that I was planning on doing. I have to work almost everyday now until the end of the summer, which is great for the most part. I also find myself being really happy. I am more then excited to see my boyfriend tonight. When i'm away from him I realize how much I need him and love him, and how I cannot wait to be in his arms and tell him stories. At the same time though, the distance brings us closer and we get to spend hours just sitting and talking to each other. I couldn't ask for anything better right about now.

more then happy.

Going on vacation with my two bestfriends all weekend! What more could I ask for? I am so happy and excited! I just want the weekend to start right now. Pelee Island, here we come!!

the beginning of the end.

I'm having a boring night so I might as well blog. I feel like it's a chore now but some people like to lurk so i'll give them something to do. I'm in a weird mood right now and I don't know what it is. I feel weird, and mad, and sad or something. I wish it was tomorrow, but I didnt have to sleep and it would just arrive. I'm supposed to get a tattoo tomorrow, which I will. I also want to shop but i might refrain due to brokeness and knowing that I shouldn't. Everything seems so out of reach right now. I feel like I can never acheive any goals and that I never have any money. I hate needing money all the time when I don't have it. I guess I could say I feel useless and poor and sad. I don't really know right now. I get in these stupid moods and then while i'm getting out of them I tell myself that I will do this and that and be a better person for myself, I guess. In the end I clearly don't and nothing changes. I just want tomorrow to come so I can be happy and work and enjoy everything. When it really comes down to it I should focus on what I need, not what I want. I need a new car to last me longer then months at a time. I need a bedroom so I can be happy going home and actually spend some time there. I need my best friends around more often, but we never have time for eachother. I need to compromise, listen and learn with my boyfriend; i love him more then anything but we have our up's and down's. But, the most important thing is I need to be happy more often. To just put my hate and my dumb feelings about everything aside and just have a better outlook on everything. I just need all this for me. Maybe this is the first stage of realizing what this is really all about. Good luck to me.

english muffin.

I have been so busy lately with everything going on. My cousin being here makes for no free time but I really love it. We have done almost everything together for the past week and he gets along with Jon and all my friends so I love taking him out! Today is 7 months for me and Jon which makes me super happy! Today I have to work, which I do everyday anyways but I might take my cousin to get a tattoo before that. I don't even really have much time to be doing this but I thought I might update quickly and get into details later. All in all everything is going great and I hope it continues!

chop me up, leave me be.

I am just lol-ing at everything today... Ha!

Ps. Cousin is officially in Canada! Excited to meet him and spend the next two weeks together! For now, I work the next three days. Got to love getting Friday and Saturday off though!

save me, baby.

I am so glad I picked the friends I did. See ya, everyone else.

the tension and terror.

All the boys voices cracking
Oh, the moaning half tones
Come summertime, we're all the same age here
All the tension and the terror
Thin-limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
And I'm going straight to hell

All the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily

And I try but I'm not convincing
Your lips, they pout and twist
And I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need
Just keep me guessing please

Darling, all of these awkward jump start-stalling conversations
Mean much more to me than anything
It comes down to me and you
And whether we're supposed to or not, we still will
We're so much better off than them

All the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily

A look
A laugh
A smile
A second passes by and I regret it
words just aren't right
Sometimes I just can't explain
All the ways you devastate me
Always on my mind

chyeah!

Somebody got bangs! They need a lot of getting used to, that's for sure. Even though I've had them more then 10 times in my life. Haha!