yeah, you got me.

Fun weekend ahead? I think so!

slow down, right now.

Tonight I'm going to have a sleepover with Tess, since last time it didn't work out. We're going out for dinner too! It will easier to see my boy in the morning as soon as he's done his exam. I can't wait. We're going to have a really good day, just us two because it has been a whole week without him. I will see him tonight briefly for his ball hockey game, but to me it's such a tease. I baked him some cookies yesterday so I hope he enjoys them!

I guess that's all for right now, I have to drive the long drive to Tess' in a minute. TTFN!

Ps. I need a new job! Help?

fuck.

I want my boyfriend !!!!!! NOW! : (

imy.

Ps! He is so fucking cute.

Who else's boyfriend emails them a really adorable picture telling them they love them?

MINE! <3

only time will tell.

I don't want to be wrong but I can't always be right. I don't think the truth or what I did was wrong, but was it right? It's so hard to work things out sometimes. Everyone always feels like what they say is better and obviously fights don't end until an agreement is made. I know how this works, I've clearly done this before and I hate it. I don't want to be the one to give in first. I did last time and I usually don't. I guess i'm pretty stubborn when it comes to this stuff.

Anyways, I also don't trust a certain person right now. I don't know what it is but if I am told by someone close to me to watch out for them, then obviously I will take their word for it. I hear a lot of stuff from people about what they've done to other people and who they have hurt. I feel like this person is very two faced and plays acts for everyone. I am a girl so obviously I see this first hand. I know how to be like they are, and i'm sure I've done all the same things. Either way, i'm not scared of them or what they think of me because I know who I want in my life. Maybe right now i'll have to play nice and see where this leads. Maybe things will change and I will grow to trust them.

chit chat.

Beth wanted everyone to know that we are sitting here waiting for the night to start and that I am eating random limes and she is doing shots. Kara is also here drinking her beer. I hope tonight is decent. So far we know we are bar hopping!

Anyways the reason why I came on here was to post this:

It doesn't matter where you go in life, what you do or how much you have. It's who you have beside you you that matters, & i'm so glad I have you; ♥ for all those people who matter most.

keep me running.

The last two days I decided to actually spend money on shopping. I never ever do, so it was much needed. I got some great stuff and I'm happy with all of it. I still need things off of my list that I had posted awhile ago but that's okay for now because I feel better. Shopping can always make me feel better, and i'm sure every other girl. It could be a bad thing if you're sad all the time though! Anyways, I am mad at my mom for forgetting that I need to survive everyday life with food. There is absolutely no longer anything edible in my house, because I ate it all of course. She is never here, she never calls, and she never asks if I need anything. She expects me to pay for everything myself, which I can't right now with my lame two shifts a week. I need a new job now, and I need to move out!

reality is just around the corner.

I hope this weekend is fun! All the girls are supposed to get together Saturday for sure and possibly even Friday too. I have yet to be told what the plan is but probably pre-drinks somewhere, like usual then out to dance/bars. I really hope i'm in the mood to go because I usually don't really care to go out. Today happens to be the first official month into my non-drinking bet. One month down, two to go! I'm sure Jon is proud of me! I am pretty proud of myself too because I've had so many opportunities to drink and so many offers for free drinks when i'm out. I don't feel any better and I don't feel any worse, but I guess that's because I wasn't really big on drinking in the first place.

I think i'm quite satisfied with everything right now except for money. I still have a lot to pay off and a lot to save if I want to have a nice place with Beth by the end of the summer. I am hoping all the money I make this summer will just be profit and that way i'll only spend money on bills and cheap things here and there. I at least have to promise myself that's what i'll do. If that doesn't work i'll have to get someone to hold on to my money just in case I get a little crazy. I mean, I need more tattoos and a few things for summer right? Plus, I have a very large Summer List to accomplish with my boy and all my friends. Haha!

so satisfied.

They turned out better then I could imagine. The top picture shows the teacup done because the teapot still looks like the bottom picture. I made another appointment in two weeks to get it all done. I am so excited because I think they look so pretty! I'm also happy because Beth and Emily love them too and that's all that matters because that's who they are for.

& it wouldn't matter anyways.

I feel like I never blog anymore. I don't know why because I do almost every time I am home and on my laptop. I also feel like I have so much to say, but when I get to starting a new post, I get writers block!

Anyways, tomorrow is Tuesday! I get my tattoo done at 2pm! I am sooo excited and I know it's going to hurt but i'm pretty tough when it comes to tattoos. I will post a picture after. It's only going to be the outline which sucks because I've never done a two part tattoo before other then touch ups. I'm going to hate the waiting in between to get it all finished up, i'm so impatient.

After that, i'm heading to Welland to hangout with Tess. We're having a sleepover which is pretty exciting because I don't think I've had one in a really long time with anyone but Jon. Which reminds me; I miss him! It's been like 5 hours but I won't see him this week because of homework and studying! I don't mind because after these next two weeks it's summer and he is all mine! This summer is going to be so much fun! I can't wait until the weather is nice all the time and I get to wear shorts and a bathing suit everywhere. I also think summer is my favorite because I get to show off all my tattoos since almost all of them are hidden!

Well, it's 3am so I better get to bed! Cyuhhh.

move a little faster, talk a little louder.

I just got off work not too long ago. It's nice to sit down finally and just do nothing until I meet up for my plans later. I'm going out with Max and Cam tonight which makes me so happy because I haven't had time to in what seems like forever! We are going to Boston Pizza so it will be a nice chill night. I went there last night too with Beth, Robyn and Aly. It was such a funny night. After being there until around 1am we headed to Pepper Mints! It was the weirdest thing ever, and I want to bring all my friends who haven't been because it just makes you laugh so much! Tomorrow I work again until 4pm, then stealing my boyfriend again!

Ttfn.

Ps. Cherie; I know your reading this, so message Jonny and we will plan something!! lol <3

now it's real.

By the way; updating you on ADTR show from Wednesday.

My camera died right before we went in, of course. I only got a few decent pictures with my Blackberry but they are kind of pointless to post. It was a lot of fun, minus all the pushing and how I never actually seen the bands play. I would defiantly do it again for sure though. I'm glad it made my boy's life to see his favorite band with his favorite people!

let's not fake it.

I hate being in a shitty mood over nothing. Thank you for that.

here comes the rain.

Tonight is going to be so much fun! I can't wait to have yet another double date day with Nick and Tess. We're going to see A Day To Remember, Enter Shikari, August Burns Red and one more band I believe. We're hoping to leave around 2pm so we can spend some time in Toronto before the show. I'll post some cool pictures later!!

you have no idea...

...how closely I wrapped myself around your heart. ♥

hiiii!

He is so attractive, I don't care what anyone says.

they just want to see me fall.

This weekend was enjoyable. I liked who we hung out with and what we did was pretty fun. I learned that 'onezie day' isn't really our thing. I'm sad because I was looking forward to it and I guess it just wasn't what I expected. I think more planning has to go into it, maybe? I don't know, but I hope the next one works out!

Only two days until the big show! Jonny is so excited. I'm actually really excited too though. I think it will be a cute double date day with Nick and Tess too. Wednesday will just be awesome in general. I was sad because I booked my next tattoo on that day so I had to reschedule to the following Tuesday. I'm excited for that as well! I love getting new tattoo's because it's something new I get to admire on myself until I get my next one. I think it's going to be one of the most painful for sure because it's on both of my feet. Everyone says thats a sore spot so I know what to expect.

I think i'm going to try and look nice today, just for no reason. I never care how I look, plus I have about five hours to do nothing, so why not? I hope my boy enjoys. I might post a picture later for the hell of it.

Keira.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

sweep me off my feet again.

Well, today has been quite uneventful. I hope tomorrow is much better. I'm sure it will be because I get to see everyone and watch my boy's ball hockey game. I really just can't wait to hug and kiss my babe. I'm such a sucker when it comes to him being around, I just can't help it. The rain the last two days has been nice actually. I like when there is thunderstorms so I can just sit outside and watch the lightning and listen to all the thunder and rain; It's so peaceful. When I have a house of my own, having a porch to sit on and watch the world will be the highlight of my life. I love the simple little things that can make a person happy. It makes me smile hearing what can make a persons day because sometimes it's nothing at all and you can wonder how they love it so much, but thats just their way of living; and it rules!

i'll wait right here, all night for you.

I love going for drives. I don't know what I would do with out my car. It is seriously so nice to be able to have something I don't have to share for once. Going for long drives and just singing insanely loud just makes me the happiest person alive. It's something only me and Cecil share and I like it. I hate being alone anywhere else but my car for some reason. The things that go through my head when I drive feels so nice. Even when i'm upset, driving always puts a brighter side to everything for me and I love that. I can even ball my eyes out in my car and no one would know. It's the perfect place for me, and I would die without it. If I ever get a new car I will be so sad because even though it's only been 7 months with him, it feels like forever and I would never forget all the love he brought me. I am so happy right now!

I'm such a nerd. : )

..And I love my boyfriend.

hello nice weather.

For summer, I need a few things! Here we go:

1. Beach hat

2. New bathing suits, one strapless for sure. From Victoria Secret

3. A pre-tan, trying to work on that while the weather is nice randomly right now

4. Lots of tank tops

5. Shorts, maybe 2 new pairs

6. One more pair of sunglasses

7. Cute beach dresses

8. Hair dyed because it fades so fast in the sun

9. Beach towel/blanket because i'm always there

10. Large beach bag that is sand proof!

Ps. I have a huge Iced Coffee obsession, and I will have it all summer.

see you later.

Some people just keep getting on my nerves. Seriously, just deal with your own problems and stop worrying about mine.

Okay, great.

backwards.

I had a heart-to-heart with my boy tonight. I cried. It made me upset and still does typing about it. I just want everything to be back to normal. No more sad, no more fighting. I just need time alone with him and I think I will feel so much better. I actually still can't believe we haven't had a whole day alone in the 4 months we've been together, and how I haven't noticed until now. I just want to go cuddle and fall asleep with him and forget about it.

you should probably cover your eyes now.

I hate everything all at once, at this very moment and nothing nor no one is helping. I haven't ate anything real in two days and I constantly feel like throwing up. Cool.

it's here for the taking.

Summer! I'm so absolutely stoked on this weather. It makes me so happy. Today I'm going to hopefully be tanning outside all day with Kara. The first day it was nice was Thursday. A bunch of us spent all day outside, it was awesome. I love being outside in anyway in this warmth. Even driving is more enjoyable. I am kind of hoping it's not amazing out tomorrow because I literally work all day, and i'm not looking forward to it.

Last night we had a girls night. It was nice because it was just six of us and we were all of age so we didn't have to worry about anyone getting rejected, which is usually the case. I personally hate bringing people who need fakes because I think it is really worth the wait until you're 19. The bars aren't really that special, and they are still going to be there when you actually are old enough to go. We all went to the pepper and it was kind of lame. No one was dancing but us and half the time we were trying to find everyone else. Then me, Kara and Sarah went outside because we thought we heard something about a fight and sure enough all the boys we went to school with were fighting I don't know who, about I don't know what. Right after that we left, got McDs (like usual) and went home to bed.

I am going out for Shannon's birthday next weekend too. I hope it's fun! I'm so sick of going out. Maybe I just have it in my head that going out sucks so I never have a good time. Whatever though, i'm an old lady.

all my islands have sunk.

I miss my boyfriend, just being mine. No one else's. I share him whenever i'm with him and I think I need to be selfish for just once and steal him for a whole day so it can just be us two. I smile just thinking about all the fun we can have! Stoked to plan this cute hangout.

so bored to death, you held your breath.

<3

I feel...

...unwanted.