been there, done that.

Love my friends,

Miss a few,

In love with my boyfriend more and more each day,

Happy,

Tanned,

& about to die on my way to Hamilton in this rain storm!

I need you, but only for a minute.

Today should be a good day! Friends, boyfriend, and doing some fun stuff. The beach has been really good the last 4 days I have been going. Today is a cooler day so I decided not to go. I have been pretty happy with everything but work lately so I think i'm doing okay. A few people are kind of getting under my skin but i'm trying not to let it bother me too much. I feel like a could eat ice cream all day, everyday because of the heat and of course how delicious it is! I am not going out this weekend because I feel like it's always the same shit. Everyone gets drunk, I drive, we chill at a bar, I loose everyone because they're out chasing boys, and then I want to leave early because i'm bored. I think I need a new bar experience, like something to make it more fun!

I have crossed off a few more things off my Summer List but I don't have any pictures to post. Like I promised before, I will post what I have done soon. Maybe it's because it's Summer, I don't like to blog much, but I guess it could be because i'm really not home a lot to sit down and write. Right now i'm waiting for Jon to get off work so I can go over to his place. My friends are kind of upset i'm not coming out tonight when I said I was but sometimes plans change. I feel like they only need me to be the driver anyways and that's why i'm invited sometimes. They have no problem paying me so I always am more then fine with it. I always get writers block when I start writing and it makes me mad because I know I had tons of stuff to say. I really hope I get some money soon. I am craving a new tattoo and would love to start and finish my half sleeve this summer!

go with the flow.

So, I don't feel like I write much. I have been really busy since the weather has been so nice. I am out tanning or at the beach almost everyday. I have also crossed out a few more things on my summer list but I will tell you all about it when I actually have time! I only came on to write tonight because I am sitting alone at home just relaxing. Let me tell you that I have a real good tan already and i'll be black in no time. I am really enjoying summer! I think it's going to be great.

livin' life without care.

Saturday was month number 2 of no drinking! I am so proud of myself. I most likely won't drink for a long time. I didn't do too much this weekend. Hung out with the usual people and did the usual going out/staying in stuff. Tonight I went to My Cottage because even though it's Sunday, it's the long weekend and everyone goes out. It was a decent time and the hot dog at the end made my night! My boy and his friends were there which is nice because we never go to bars and stuff together. It is supposed to be super hot all week! I am really looking forward to because I have this whole week off to get my tan on and then it's back to work. I have a few more shifts then usual, but still not full time. I want to look for another job this week as well, so I hope I find some places hiring. Well, it's about 3:30am so I should be heading to bed to be up early for the beach. Ttfn.

number 10.

Today has been such a great day so far. I was with Beth and Emily all day which is always the best because they are my two best friends. We always do the cutest things when the three of us are together! We went to the beach at noon and it was nice but super windy, so about after an hour and a bit we headed back to Emily's. She mentioned she had a kite and it's number 10 on my summer list so we decided to fly it! It was a lot of fun and we got to tan more in the park. Tonight is the girls night and so far the plan is to go for a little adventure around town and just walk a bunch of places! I think it will be super cute and fun! This makes summer so exciting and today is such a good, solid fun day in a while.

Ps. Yes, this is a Strawberry Shortcake kite. We are cute.

love is something you work at.

Well you stole my heart
And I'll get it back
But look me in the eye babe
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that

Well I've walked this world
Five times or more
And after all this walking babe
You still got me crawlin on the floor
crawlin on the floor
And I know this world keeps on turning
Keeps me yearning

How can you turn and walk away
Pretending everythings okay?
How can you turn your back?
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
why ya gonna love me like that?

Well I thought you'd listen
But I'm shattered like broken glass
Well I thought that we'd be different babe
Yeah, I thought that we would last
I thought that we would last
And I know this world keeps on spinning
Every minute that you're in it

Love me or leave me baby but don't lead me on
With loving like yours believe me i'm better off
I"m better off alone
Well I was your gypsy
Throwing diamonds at your feet
Drifted round you like a satellite
Gave you everything you need
Everything you need
And I know this world keeps on turning
Keeps me yearning and yearning

How can you just break away
Why can't you find the words to say
Love is something you work at
Tell me why ya gonna love me like that
Why ya gonna love me like that
How can you throw us away
Look at what you lost today
Now everything is shades of gray
And now you're pushing me away
Say all the things you want to say
Thought we were going all the way
Play all the games you wanna play
Slowly we just fade away

- I love her.

ease up.

Worst day of my life. I feel sad, mad, sick and worthless. I never thought you could make me feel like this. Just because I say one thing doesn't mean i'm being completely serious. Thanks for running away once again. I don't even know what to say or do because I feel like i'm just headed for failure.

This made me feel better for a minute. It reminds me of you. -

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love

stoked on summer.

Today I hit the beach for the first time. It was cold at first because we went at about 1130am but it warmed up quick. I didn't think I got much of a tan or anything until I showered and found out I burned. I don't mind though because it's just a burn that will turn into a tan in 2 or 3 days! I am really stoked on going to the beach lots this summer. At the same time though, working and making money is much more important to me so I don't know if I will make it too often! I'm sure once everyone gets their work hours figured out it will be easy to schedule some beach days. Ttfn though, I have to eat and meet up with my boy and then possibly hang with my long lost best friend.

lol?

This made me laugh. Only because I work here.

boring day.

I am having the most boring day! Went tanning when I woke up and just chilled with Beth for a little and gossiped. I won't be doing anything tonight and most likely nothing exciting tomorrow unless it's nice out and I get to tan. I need a hobby, maybe I should start going to the gym or something? I am the laziest for that though, so who knows. When I am home alone I tend to over think a lot of stuff and get mad and then even more mad because I'm by myself. Ahh well, nothing I can do about it when everyone is busy.

built for speed.

This week we are apparently having awesome weather. A few of us talked about going to the beach but i'm not sure when. Jon is working all week so I wont see him much but that means more time with my girls. During the next two weeks I have no shifts at work. I was told full time starts after that which is great because I really need all the money I can get. I have a really good plan set for this summer and I want to stick to it. I know I will regret it if I don't. For now I am going to work on my tan and hope for the best.

in between it all.

I don't know what you want from me. First you're rude and now you're trying to be 'good friends'. I have no intention of being in your life, even though I once did. It is so awkward seeing you and talking to you. When I look at you I can't even remember who you are, or used to be. I just get the feeling from you that you want me back in your life and i'm sorry but that is never, ever going to happen. I wish you would understand when I tell you I don't want to talk, but you just think I'm being a bitch. I could care less about you and I want you to try and keep your distance.

right here with my friends.

I know who my real friends are and thats all I need. Thank the rest of you for helping me figure that out. We are all mature enough to know who we need in our life and who we could care less about. I suggest all of you do the same and stop the bullshit.

cutie.

Fits my boyfriend very well. I think it's a perfect resemblance.

I'm so damn artsy.

these miles have torn us worlds apart.

My life in a nut shell;

- Still job hunting

- Getting lazier each day I don't work

- Working at which ever 7-Eleven needs me

- Broker then ever

- In debt

- Sad when I have to be alone

- Hating the weather and being without a tan

- Still in love

- Missing my best friends

- Liking not drinking

- Wishing I exercised

- Wanting more tattoos, obviously

- Needing my hair dyed.

- Some people are getting on my nerves lately

- Thinking a few things need to change.

i'm thinking..

let's not pretend you're alone tonight.

I got my tattoo yesterday and it defiantly went well! It wasn't as painful as the last time and it went by really quick. I love it and it looks great with the other foot. I want to post a picture when they are the same tone because it has some fading to do. I never went out tonight because my foot was to sore to do much of anything. I was supposed to work tonight as well and I called in, which ended up being a big deal; whatever.

Last night didn't end up well but I liked the turnout after, if that makes sense to you. But, let me tell you; if you and your boyfriend/girlfriend are having problems with anything, you really shouldn't be yelling and arguing. It is so much easier to just sit and talk everything out, listen what each other has to say and try to compromise. Arguing gets you no where and everyone ends up angry and hating each other. That is just my opinion, but it works for me.

Anyways, tonight I am back home doing nothing after being at Tess' all day. It sucks not sleeping at Jon's sometimes but we've been taking a break from sleepovers this week. I don't mind because I still get to see him. I am obsessed with him, and he probably loves it but I don't want any of my friends or his friends mad that they never see us. They haven't said anything that I know of, which is great! I think I spend equal amount of time with everyone and so does he. I talk about him way too much, haha. I think i'm going to try and sleep at a decent time tonight seeing as its already 1:40am. Ttfn.

tangled up in my big sunglasses.

Drive inn tonight was awesome! I can't wait to go more this summer, but with a lot more people too. I got to cross another thing off my Summer List which makes me really happy. I try to at least do one thing a day if I have time for it, but there is a lot of things that are time consuming. It's really going to be a lot of fun when we start getting into it.

Tomorrow is my tattoo appointment, which i'm defiantly stoked about. I also took a shift at another 7-Eleven in St. Catherines so I can get some extra money seeing as I get one shift a week. So, this means I now work 5-11 and then I think I am meeting Jon and his friends at Boston Pizza in the falls for someones birthday. I hope it turns out to be a decent day and my shift goes fast so I can have some fun.

get in, get up.

It's been quite awhile. I guess I've done quite a bit in the almost week it's been since my last post. Yesterday I finally printed out my Summer List! I got to cross out number 50 first because like I posted about it before, I have accomplished falling in love. Today Jon and I took a trip to Avondale Dairy Bars to cross out number 13 on the list. Jon has never been and I think he liked it so I hope there will be many more trips there. When I read the list it seems like I'll never get anything done, but a lot of them are really easy so I hope I do. Jon's excited for them too, so that helps! I also hope a lot of my friends and his friends become apart of the fun, I would really like that.

A bunch of us went to go see the new Nightmare On Elm Street and it was absolutely horrible. I am the biggest baby when it comes to scary movies and I jumped once or twice. There is a difference from jumpy and scary though. This movie had the worst acting, effects and story line. I defiantly don't recommend seeing it at all! I had a really fun weekend going to Baracuda with a bunch of friends. I'll probably go there more often now that I know it's fun. I'm not sure if I want to go out this weekend though. I'm supposed to hit up My Cottage if it's nice out. I heard it's a lot of fun, so if everyone is going then i'm down for sure. It was the nicest out today that it will be all week, which is kind of upsetting because we were supposed to hit the beach. We never ended up making for sure plans to go because we heard it would rain all day, but then only did tonight. Thunder storms rule! I know I've posted about them before too! They make me happy even though it ruins the nice warm sun. The drive home from Jon`s tonight in the rain wasn`t very enjoyable though because it was crazy down pouring and foggy.

I`m not sure how sleeping on my couch will be for the first time in what seems like forever. I haven`t even attempted to lay down yet and I miss Jon`s bed, and him already. Waking up to him is the best. Whoever wakes up first usually kisses the other one and then we say good morning and it makes me smile, mostly because he is up kissing me first! Well, I think i`m going to try and get some sleep. Night.

Ps! I am so excited for Friday! Feet tattoo's finally get finished!!!

come with me, i'll show you the way.

Stupidest day. Legit.

love through blog post's.

Boyfriend; You are the most amazing person I've ever met. You make me smile, laugh and surprise me every time. I love the way you kiss me, hold me and love me. I know that you would do everything and anything for me and I hope you know I wouldn't think twice about doing the same for you. I like that we are exactly the same because we get along a lot better that way, and we giggle about the stupidest things. It's cute that we have so many things that we share together and remind us of each other when we're apart. I love our good nights and good mornings, they always make me smile. You go out of your way for not only me, but for everyone else which is beyond great because everything you do, you're the greatest at. Even when we argue, we can't stay mad long because we know how much we mean to each other and how stupid it is. I love all of your friends, and how we get to see them all the time and have the funnest adventures. I know we don't spend much time together, just us, but it's nice when we do because it feels great to steal you away. It makes me happy that we have been so comfortable with each other from the start. I want you to know that I can't see myself without you in my life, because you are my life. I miss you every time i'm without you, and think about you every second of everyday. Nothing, nor no one, could ever compare to a person like you. Thanks for being you, every day, all day. I love you so much, forever. I do. You're mine.

Love your's ; Lettuce, the only girl for you.

♥ oxxxo ♥